I will miss my house and all my friends. I am referring to our studio and to us yogalisboa family.
I am looking forward to be just a student and to have some time after practice to do shavasana... feel a bit nervous and anxious when i think of leaving. It has been the the first time in many years. I've stayed in the same place just teaching and following a routine for the last 3 years.
I learned that when you stop moving nothing stops or ends, instead other things, and people around move and come to you. You stop being attracted and you build something that attracts.
But most of all and independently of what i have built or attracted I feel our space was a conjuncture created independently from my will, like a magnet which attracts good people all the time into the same area in Lisbon. All together, these people are able to create such beautiful moments. ( Durga the cat is included ) :)
As a teacher I spend many moments just observing... I have seen and watched many of you being something that you never imagined you could be. Doing postures that you never imagined you could do (that I never imagined you would do lol :) ) and also having moments of happiness or just clearness that had been long time, or that never happened before.
With this though and with no expectations I will live and go back to my teacher in Mysore, India.
I will try to write down what I experience as a student and to describe such moments to you all.
I feel this way we will all be closer. The Shala and our Ganesha altar will always be present.
I will take some pictures and notes to make my writing a bit more interesting ;( don't worry :) I will also write it on paper and just scan it cause i don't like computers :) this way you all get some ugly drawings to laugh about :)
Oh, i almost forgot... love the studio while I am in india. It has become a good place for all of us and the main reason is because we all have brought so much love, devotion and respect to this place.
Even the neighbour's cat likes it more than her own house. Jai Durga Jai Jai.
Happiness is there :)
Sending you all good energies